a butter dish

I have a tendency to walk into a store, fill a cart with all sorts of things that I want, and then by the time I get to the check out stand I have managed to talk myself out of every single purchase and walk out of the store with nothing.

For the most part this doesn't really both Kyle, but every once in awhile he really wishes I would buy the things we do need.

Since we've been married I haven't bought us a butter dish. I've gotten close many times, but decided last minute that it wasn't a NEED.

I've had many friends even tell me "Bekki, you know you can get one for just a couple dollars right?"
Kyle has reminded me that even though we're on a budget we can afford butter dishes.

Well this morning the UPS man rang our doorbell with a package for me. A butter dish. It's perfect: simple and white.

Kyle takes care of me... even when I refuse to take care of us and our butter dish needs.

if I could take anyone to dinner

I started thinking yesterday, if I could take anyone to dinner who would it be? It was a pretty easy decision, but then I allowed myself two choices, I can choose one person who has already died and one person still living. 

My first choice: King David. He was said to be a man after God's own heart. Jesus was born of his line. I could go on and on, but I can't imagine anyone I'd want more at my dinner table. 

My second choice: ok, your all probably going to say ew! or laugh or think I'm kind of silly. But I'd take Kyle to dinner. I mean he is my favorite person.

On a little side note, tonight I have book club and we are reading the screwtape letters. I've read it before, but it was worth reading again!  I highly recommend it. I highly recommend anything by C.S. Lewis (he is one of my favorite authors) If you haven't heard of it or read it before here is a link to get a summary of the book. 

getting to know you...

During the sermon on Sunday the pastor said that as we get to know God better we see our sin more clearly. ( I paraphrased) 

I've been thinking about that in terms of friendships as well. When you get to know someone you see the good, the bad, and the ugly. 

How often do we stop and think: "If I am seeing sin in them, they must be seeing sin in me as well." (probably twice as much sin if your getting to know me!)

As you can probably tell from previous posts I have been thinking a lot about the Lord's patience and love... I'm NOT one for New Years Resolutions, I don't like to say from now on I'm going to ___ fill in the blank. I am praying, however, that the Lord takes these thoughts and transforms them into consistent thought processes that truly change the way I treat/view people and change the way I view God. 

1 Peter 4:8 Above all, keep fervent in your love for one another, because love covers a multitude of sins. 

lemon poppyseed muffins

I was feeling anything but well last night.

Kyle had been texting me throughout the day with encouragement and checking on me. He even did a little grocery shopping on his way home. 

Instead of coming home to a wife making him dinner, or really being productive in any way, he came home to me on the couch in the fetal position. 

He just held me for awhile, took care of me, and then...

Kyle baked me poppy seed muffins. I don't know if he's ever made anything more difficult than a scrambled egg. 

It was just a box mix, nothing fancy, but it took him about 15 minutes just to get it mixed together and EVENLY put into the muffin tins. 

He wanted them to be perfect for me, and they were. 

He continued to ask me if there was anything I needed.

I have a wonderful husband who takes such good care of me.

Perspective

We had an incredible sermon yesterday about our TOTAL forgiveness in Christ. 

How amazing that we are forgiven completely, even for the things that we haven't confessed, for the things that we will do, have done and are currently battling. 

The freedom in Christ, the forgiveness... it's overwhelming.

I have thought a lot about this lately, about God's love and forgiveness. He is so patient with us. I could spend forever talking about the ways He is patient, but think about this, He allows that we only see bits of our sin at a time. We are given the chance to grow, battle, and overcome before we are given another challenge. What if we saw all of our sin at once! We would probably have a better understanding of how wretched we are, but we would also not be able to handle it. We can't even handle the sins we are battling now on our own. God is our complete strength!

This day I am thankful for a patient, forgiving God who see's us through His son, so that He can continue to be patient with us.  

His forgiveness makes me want to battle harder and to eagerly forgive others, because I know from what I have been forgiven.

I am really bad at creating interesting titles, so this will be called "Happy Friday"

I don't feel like I have much to share today... (that's probably not how you are supposed to start a blog, most people wont read past that line) 

I am trying to plan a fun/inexpensive surprise date for Kyle tonight. I realized it shouldn't only be him who has to plan our date nights and make them perfect. 

I cannot decide what to do. Should we do simple dinner and a movie or something crazy? It will probably end up somewhere in the middle... If anyone reading this has a good idea, please please share, you may be saving my date night! 

On another note, the bread turned out really well. As always I want to perfect it a bit, but I will post the recipe in the near future and you can try it for yourself! Like I said, this was my first attempt at making whole wheat bread, so I don't REALLY know if this is a simple recipe, but compared to some of the one's I've seen, well it's not as intimidating. 

I have updated working out, marriage and the tall diaries!

Happy Friday!

new job/being a sub/bread adventure

It's been a pretty interesting week. I was in LA on Monday, started a new job on Tuesday and was a Substitute teacher today!

Since my new job is work-from-home, my boss decided that a work dinner would be wonderful for us to see who we work with/see that we work for a real company/ orientation. 

Well I google mapped my way over and WAY underestimated how long it would take me to get there. It's in the middle of no where. I thought that I was lost several times, but in fact I was not, I was told to just keep driving. I related to Dori from finding nemo many times, yes, I sang "just keep driving" for the last 10 minutes, until I FINALLY arrived. 

The next little adventure of the week... I was a substitute teacher today. I never thought that I would sub. I did however, and it was pretty fun. I already know the kids and work with them for a little bit every day which I think was a HUGE help. The teacher gave me a rough idea of what she wanted done, and lets admit it, being a sub for 1st grade isn't rocket science. 


I did make one little girl cry. 


It really wasn't me, it was her. She had a bad attitude all day, and wasn't listening to me. She is crazy OCD about her homework. Well I had asked the class to clean up their tables and get in line, if they didn't finish the project we were working on then we'd finish after gym. (we coordinate gym time with 2 other teachers so this is the one area where I really needed to insist we kept to the schedule) 


Well, she didn't want to leave her work undone


I wanted her to get in line.

She refused.

My boss looked at me to see if I would let a 1st grader boss me around.


I took her homework from her and ...... water works.. wah wah wah wah wah


I don't feel bad.


Third adventure: Bread making. Sure I've made plenty of sweet breads, but today I made my first loaf of wheat bread. I REALLY hope that it turns out well, and if it does I will share the recipe with you! 


Kyle loves fresh baked bread so it's going to be fun to have it ready for him by the time he comes home... if it tastes ok...